Well i got 54 and i’m 13 years old. My friends have been putting me down lately and have no respect for me. My family is another problem. I have to be and act perfect. No slouching, talk to elders, dont wear skinny jeans, meet grandparents ALL the time, etc. I have to take medications so i dont go anemic again and i’ve been gaining weight from them. I can’t seem to lose it and cry for no reason sometimes. I just want to feel happy again. I want friends who understand me…
i got a 70. and i didnt think it would be that high to be honest. and i dont know what it could be.. i am 16.. and i think i live honestly a noraml teen life. and sometimes im happy. happyer then ever and bubbely and bounceing around like a teenager should. but doing nothing bad. geting B’s in school(my dads saying pokes at me…THE DIFFRENCE BETWEEN A a AND A b STUDENT) and i mean its possible i could be..i mean my mom is and i think her mom is? idk we dont talk to any of my grandparents. and well cant be my parents they are together. one works and watches TV like a normal dad. and i help my mom cook and clean..yes she has her…momments that show she forgot one of her meds.
but i honestly think thats normal. well mostly. from my friends they all say their family..sits down for dinner every night? and the parents cook and their family comes in for hollidays and NOONE ever fights
what ever it may be… its starting to..crawl at me
that feeling. not of killing or hurting myself. but of just emptyness
i cant talk or but i can say a mouth full if i type it i dont know if thats because something? or maybe its just because im small and intimidated?..but never show it because everyone would laugh or take it personaly.
and i cant sleep lately.
but my mom gets mad because i have to sleep to go to school. so i take 2 bennidrills. which make me calm down abit
im in band but i dont suck and im not the best
im in some advanced classes but that was a mistake that the scedual lady did but i do all my work
i help with theater to do somethin
i draw sometimes
and play piano
i collect pigs.
and im haveing these memorie blanks i think. thinking i did something i didnt acctuyl do. like turn off lights change into pjs
this feeling of emptyness all started bout year and half ago maybe lil longer ago. but i just dont know how to fix it
havnt told people . just one person and he even did reserch for me. but that didnt work
and i dont want to take meds
i allready have like 3 inhalers
4 allergy meds
i get panic attacks and i dont know why. nothing happens to trigger them
pain meds for mussels and wrist
headach meds cuz they make me sick sometimes
and i hate takeing meds..every time i go to doctors they try to insest something is wrong with me im sick with something new every time. never once went and they told me. yes shes growing perfectly nothing wrong.
i just want someone to tell me im wrong. or someone to tell me yes you are. or a suggestion of a hobbie i can do to take my mind of. well nothing the emptyness
someone please
i wont hurt myselfs
but it feels like im dieing in my head
Aaliyah, you are going to be fine. When you’re a teenager, everything seems monumental. But believe me, I went through a lot of depression when I was a teen and prayed for god to take my life. I remember how awful I felt. But things got better. I wouldn’t have believed it at the time, but it is true. You are so young and have lots of life ahead of you. I’m very sorry that your siblings are saying such mean things about you. That’s wrong. However, suicide will not fix anything. As long as you’re alive, there is hope. And I can tell that you are very mature for your age and a great writer. Don’t listen to your siblings. Believe in yourself and pray for the strength you need. You will get through this down phase. I promise you that. Love and strength to you! And I got a 35 on the test. Life is taking a difficult turn for me at the moment, but I’ve been around the block enough to know that it’s not permanent and the darkness will lift and the light will shine again.
I cant believe my depression is out of control, I gained wait and dont want to be in this world anymore. why do I have to be punished, when I dont want to be here. My kids dont listen to me and my youngest hates me. so Im gonna drink till my day is near why suffer ,just make it come quicker so Im out of my misery. Im sorry If I hurt my family, but I cant pretend like everything is ok when its not, so bottoms up keep drinking till its all over. They’ll be all ok when Im gone, just live to try to make it my last!!!
im 15 and i got 78 serve depression, i dont know. i just feel like the world has collapse on me. i dont know what to do or what to think anymore i’ve given up and i dont know why. i dont know how i feel,i just want things to go back to the way they were when i was a kid. i just want someone to care about me for once in my life. i know i need help, but i dont want to see a doctor, i just want my life back, i want to be me. what should i do???
got a 41… but I also migh be insane…
I know people care about me, but i dont care about them.
I dont care about most people.
some people have fantasies about sex or drugs….. when I daydream, its about how quickly and effectively I can kill the people around me. I never actually would though, but I know that because I am aware that I could do it if I really wanted to. I dont dream about taking my own life, but about getting rid of the people around me until I can do what I want without being interferred with or judged. I’ve never done anything ‘bad’ in my life, because I want to do those things before I die, so I will. Which I want to be later, not now. But for now I will almost be content with killing people in my minds eye…
Not to mention I’m overly critical, but if people did or gave my what I wanted, I’d just end up spoiled…. not to mention I dont know what I want…. But I know that I wouldnt ever kill myself. I might do something, like the military that could end up killing me, but I’d much rather kill people than be killed…. that doesnt stop me from feeling like my life has no meaning though… oh and im 14 btw…
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Well i got 54 and i’m 13 years old. My friends have been putting me down lately and have no respect for me. My family is another problem. I have to be and act perfect. No slouching, talk to elders, dont wear skinny jeans, meet grandparents ALL the time, etc. I have to take medications so i dont go anemic again and i’ve been gaining weight from them. I can’t seem to lose it and cry for no reason sometimes. I just want to feel happy again. I want friends who understand me…
I scored a 67….. help me
i got a 70. and i didnt think it would be that high to be honest. and i dont know what it could be.. i am 16.. and i think i live honestly a noraml teen life. and sometimes im happy. happyer then ever and bubbely and bounceing around like a teenager should. but doing nothing bad. geting B’s in school(my dads saying pokes at me…THE DIFFRENCE BETWEEN A a AND A b STUDENT) and i mean its possible i could be..i mean my mom is and i think her mom is? idk we dont talk to any of my grandparents. and well cant be my parents they are together. one works and watches TV like a normal dad. and i help my mom cook and clean..yes she has her…momments that show she forgot one of her meds.
but i honestly think thats normal. well mostly. from my friends they all say their family..sits down for dinner every night? and the parents cook and their family comes in for hollidays and NOONE ever fights
what ever it may be… its starting to..crawl at me
that feeling. not of killing or hurting myself. but of just emptyness
i cant talk or but i can say a mouth full if i type it i dont know if thats because something? or maybe its just because im small and intimidated?..but never show it because everyone would laugh or take it personaly.
and i cant sleep lately.
but my mom gets mad because i have to sleep to go to school. so i take 2 bennidrills. which make me calm down abit
im in band but i dont suck and im not the best
im in some advanced classes but that was a mistake that the scedual lady did but i do all my work
i help with theater to do somethin
i draw sometimes
and play piano
i collect pigs.
and im haveing these memorie blanks i think. thinking i did something i didnt acctuyl do. like turn off lights change into pjs
this feeling of emptyness all started bout year and half ago maybe lil longer ago. but i just dont know how to fix it
havnt told people . just one person and he even did reserch for me. but that didnt work
and i dont want to take meds
i allready have like 3 inhalers
4 allergy meds
i get panic attacks and i dont know why. nothing happens to trigger them
pain meds for mussels and wrist
headach meds cuz they make me sick sometimes
and i hate takeing meds..every time i go to doctors they try to insest something is wrong with me im sick with something new every time. never once went and they told me. yes shes growing perfectly nothing wrong.
i just want someone to tell me im wrong. or someone to tell me yes you are. or a suggestion of a hobbie i can do to take my mind of. well nothing the emptyness
someone please
i wont hurt myselfs
but it feels like im dieing in my head
i got a 59 im a 15yr Nordic Male and my life sucks but i dont wanna kill myself
Aaliyah, you are going to be fine. When you’re a teenager, everything seems monumental. But believe me, I went through a lot of depression when I was a teen and prayed for god to take my life. I remember how awful I felt. But things got better. I wouldn’t have believed it at the time, but it is true. You are so young and have lots of life ahead of you. I’m very sorry that your siblings are saying such mean things about you. That’s wrong. However, suicide will not fix anything. As long as you’re alive, there is hope. And I can tell that you are very mature for your age and a great writer. Don’t listen to your siblings. Believe in yourself and pray for the strength you need. You will get through this down phase. I promise you that. Love and strength to you! And I got a 35 on the test. Life is taking a difficult turn for me at the moment, but I’ve been around the block enough to know that it’s not permanent and the darkness will lift and the light will shine again.
I cant believe my depression is out of control, I gained wait and dont want to be in this world anymore. why do I have to be punished, when I dont want to be here. My kids dont listen to me and my youngest hates me. so Im gonna drink till my day is near why suffer ,just make it come quicker so Im out of my misery. Im sorry If I hurt my family, but I cant pretend like everything is ok when its not, so bottoms up keep drinking till its all over. They’ll be all ok when Im gone, just live to try to make it my last!!!
im 15 and i got 78 serve depression, i dont know. i just feel like the world has collapse on me. i dont know what to do or what to think anymore i’ve given up and i dont know why. i dont know how i feel,i just want things to go back to the way they were when i was a kid. i just want someone to care about me for once in my life. i know i need help, but i dont want to see a doctor, i just want my life back, i want to be me. what should i do???
got a 41… but I also migh be insane…
I know people care about me, but i dont care about them.
I dont care about most people.
some people have fantasies about sex or drugs….. when I daydream, its about how quickly and effectively I can kill the people around me. I never actually would though, but I know that because I am aware that I could do it if I really wanted to. I dont dream about taking my own life, but about getting rid of the people around me until I can do what I want without being interferred with or judged. I’ve never done anything ‘bad’ in my life, because I want to do those things before I die, so I will. Which I want to be later, not now. But for now I will almost be content with killing people in my minds eye…
Not to mention I’m overly critical, but if people did or gave my what I wanted, I’d just end up spoiled…. not to mention I dont know what I want…. But I know that I wouldnt ever kill myself. I might do something, like the military that could end up killing me, but I’d much rather kill people than be killed…. that doesnt stop me from feeling like my life has no meaning though… oh and im 14 btw…
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